How can I get through this faster? ⇐ Pick Up

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The story is this, I’m 32, I don’t care, there weren’t many women, and that was a long time ago. I had a bad experience of going out with the subsequent friend zone 2 years ago) But I recovered and continued to live, either working or idle, in short, a girl wrote to me in August , she’s 24, she said like you’re cute and off we go, flirting, communication, as it turned out after a couple of days, for her I’m the most interesting person in her life, I liked her too, there was a truth, there was a nuance - she was married, had 2 children, but with her husband supposedly they separated, he’s in prison) It was true, but she said that it was just for show. In short, time passed, communication gained momentum, jokes, etc., everything was cool, we soon saw each other, she was with the children, well, she came to me at guests, sat, met my mother, allowed herself to be hugged as if she were her own. True, my mother already told me then that she would break my heart, but I didn’t take any meaning to it) We continued to communicate week after week, she said that sex was possible for us, but there won’t be a relationship, but friendship with sex suited me too. The second walk was also good, she liked everything, then of course there were promises like I’ll see you but not a fact, etc. At some point she wrote let’s play a game - guess the photo , and then I realized that she was at my house, holding a chocolate bar in her hands) I was pleased and although she did not allow herself to be kissed, I still walked her to the bus. But my soul was somehow uneasy, although good in general. The next day she didn’t appear online, later she said that she was working, I asked if there was Wi-Fi at work or something, so she answered that no, later she wrote that work was taking too much time and that our communication was coming to an end, and that we wouldn’t see each other .Moreover, her communication suddenly became colder, so I sent her and deleted her. But thoughts about her haunted me and the next day I wrote to her on VK, writing that her words were making me feel sad and that we would see each other someday, well, she replied that we’d write off maybe but we won’t see each other, to which I said in response that she would come running to me, she won’t come running and that’s it. It’s still hard for me, what should I do? Am I standing at the crossroads of the friend zone or have I already been in it?