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I welcome everyone. Such a story. I am 35 years old, about 10 years ago I was walking very drunk from a party, sat down on the station bench to wait for the train and fell asleep. I was awakened by a man who looked 40-45 years old. It turned out that I overslept on the last train. He graciously offered to go and spend the night with him. Looks decently dressed, cultural communication. In general, no suspicions. We came to his house, had dinner, drank a little, he gave me a separate bed. I took a shower and fell asleep. After a while, I woke up from the fact that he was giving me a blowjob. At first I didn’t understand, I began to resist, but he reassured me, he says, calm down and have fun. I finished. Further, he picked me up and put me on my knees, and put his cock in my mouth. I tried to resist, but he held my head, and honestly I liked it. Then he put me back on the bed and pushed me from behind, he fucked me twice. So, a lot of time has passed, since then there has been no sex with guys. But I still remember that night, I remember everything to the smallest detail. And I want to repeat. Tell me am I gay? What am I supposed to do? And I want to repeat this with an older man. I am now afraid of my desires. And I don't know what to do.