I want to get advice about my relationship with my mother ⇐ Incest

[Anonymous]

Hello everyone, I'm 19 years old. We lived with my mother until I was 19. Now I come once a week. My father has been gone for a long time. Mom started to excite me at the age of 12-13. At first I thought it was just fantasy and so on. But lei 16 began to notice her special attitude towards me. Since childhood, she changed clothes in front of me. Of course, I turned away or asked to leave the room, but through the mirror I saw everything. I've seen her in panties a bunch of times. She also often wears a robe without a bra. By the way, she is now 48 years old. She never drank (maximum champagne for a holiday). Never in my life have I seen any desire for sex from her. I never caught or saw anything. So, recently I began to notice some strange actions in her. He often hugs me by accidentally placing his hand on my penis. She also suggested that I wear shorts in the summer (since it’s hot). I decided to try hugging her from behind or pressing myself against her from behind. Reacts absolutely neutrally. That is, he does not pay attention to it. When I put my hand “accidentally” on my chest, she didn’t react at all. I would like to get some advice from you on how I could develop this topic with her. I would like to have a more open relationship with her. I just can’t quite figure out whether I’m telling myself this or whether it’s true.
So I’ll also ask for advice. (Once again, I don’t consider advice like getting drunk or fucking a sleeping woman at all, since I would like to reach a new stage in the relationship)