The circulatory system came off slightly, I didn’t press it hard enough, I’m asking for help ⇐ Pick Up

[Anonymous]

Good day everyone, I’ll try to describe it briefly and to the point, don’t blame me if there’s a lot of water, thanks in advance everyone. About me: OMP 31 years old, married, child 10 months old, we live together (with my wife) in a private house, we don’t have any special problems, my status is above average, to put it mildly, my life is not bad.

About her: OZhP 34 years old, unmarried, has a 7-year-old child, lives separately from her parents in an apartment with daughter, MY COLLEAGUE at work.

It started out banal, I came to work 1.5 years ago, where I already worked and have been working for more than 10 years, I immediately liked it, started writing a little (1-2 times a week I cast fishing rods on weekends or on Friday, like ala have a good weekend, etc.) it happened she reacted and entered into dialogue, sometimes she simply left the message and responded with a thank you. She is an ordinary ordinary employee, I am also an employee but with a higher status, I report only to the higher ones)

About a year ago there was a mini-corporate and I accidentally drunkenly told that I had gone for a ride in a car with one employee and, to put it mildly, said too much (without intimacy), at that moment I saw that she had greatly lost interest in me, sharply, probably thinking that it will be the same with her. Colleagues at work, by the way, constantly teased us about how we look at each other, etc., don’t get lost, like)

Maybe 2-3 months after that, I’m trying to start communication and trying to steer the situation out of the situation by saying that I just saw how my colleagues were trying to tease her about how she liked me, I decided to switch the topic, almost incorrectly, to another OZhP with whom I was riding (she no longer works), she slightly believed and I said that no one would ever know about our communication - she believed and we started +/- communicate normally. We saw each other for the first time OUTSIDE of work a month ago, I just sometimes offered her a ride, sometimes it didn’t work out for her before, then for me, somehow (it didn’t merge, it just wasn’t possible to meet in time), I met her, greeted her I didn’t hug my hand) we rode for an hour, talked about many topics - it was great. Jokes have already begun on intimate topics and that we will go to the cinema, that she is my love (I understood that it was humor), etc.

Main action: 2 days ago there was a corporate party (mini), we went there in a narrow group. I offered to pick her up by taxi to go there, she said that she would write and didn’t write) I went myself, she was already there - ok (then he said it was great to write that he wouldn’t pick her up, she apologized). At the table we had one guy (me) and 5 girls, she was one of them) he joked as best he could, there was attention to me, the jokes came in, she and I were whispering because we were sitting next to each other, colleagues were laughing that we weren’t supposed to get fired) she was a little kinesthetic , I touched my legs a little, she responded to me, and so on. Then, 3-4 hours later, we went to the club, having already given in pretty much, I actually started groping her, even while my colleagues weren’t looking, put her on her feet and squeezed her like that) when someone passed us, I always grabbed her by the ass or legs so that get out of the way, I didn’t notice that she didn’t like it much, she never hit my hands or shouted. She left an hour later, apparently with some sucker who had been waiting for her all this time (she said in advance that she would leave, but she was delayed, I think because of me). It was around 01:00 ~ night.

I stayed with two colleagues, got a little crazy there (it was fun) and I got tired of it, so I went to another OZhP, At this time, writing to this (about which topic), while we were walking and getting sucked in, I thought about her, called a couple of times and wrote - she didn’t answer, I already called a taxi to go home, and suddenly she called herself (I didn’t see it) and wrote like ala: Well hello) what's up?

I called her from a taxi, she said - come to me, my daughter is with her parents, just so that no one knows and will never find out, for 35-40 minutes, forget it right away, I grab a little drunk and turn the taxi towards her house. I went to her, immediately hugged her and kissed her on the cheek (1 time) We sat listening to music, the skirt she had been wearing all evening and at the moment was right in front of me with her legs, that is, she deliberately put her legs on the table in front of me, making me feel as much as possible provoking me, I started squeezing her, she looked surprised, like, what are you doing? For what? casually asked where you came from? I said from the girl) it took a long time to write, it all lasted for maybe 25-30 minutes, in short, he began to wring her slightly and sucked her in a couple of times, the first time she resisted strongly, the second time she struggled with her tongue)  she said that she didn’t need it, why did I do everything I do this, I ask, should I leave? she says you'll go soon, I say I can leave if you don't need me, she says no, sit, let's start a conversation, I say I like you, I'm a man, what can I do? to which she says, do you think I’m a whore or is this what you do? I slapped her in the face and she instantly got angry, saying that I was the first person in my life who hit her and took her hands so roughly, and I replied that watch the broom, if you were a whore I wouldn’t come, she says go away - I’m going and decided finish off by flying up and sucking her in and starting to climb under her skirt, she +/- didn’t resist but said go away, I don’t forgive this, I left and 10 minutes later the call rang, where are you? I say I’m waiting for a taxi, it’s cold, she says get up but don’t touch, then ok, I say I can’t help but touch you - I like you, you fool, think with your head how I can sit next to you and not touch you when you’re in a skirt and I like you, word for word - in short, I didn’t go, I got home and went to bed.

In the morning I write we need to meet to talk, she answers coldly - there’s nothing to talk about, then +/- it’s already thawed and smiles appear, I write you’re a fucking kisser, she writes it’s not true, I don’t know how, but she’ll meet no, she writes never again) I I say fuck me then so that I, as a man, don’t write to you anymore, it’s purely work and that’s all, she says no, I want to communicate but without this, I say no, I can’t. We talked about this topic for half a day, in the end she wrote that she was sick, starting this topic again she writes, I didn’t want to kiss you at all, especially if you were going under your skirt somewhere, etc., I just wanted to sit and chat and that’s all no more, I asked, so you weren’t pleased? she writes - it’s not much pleasant, I didn’t want anything like that and I’m generally shocked by you, offers about movies, etc. she says right away - we’re definitely not going anywhere else) with a smile)

I answered briefly: I understand, I’m a little in shock, thank you for the truth, get well soon! I didn’t write anything else, neither did she, I’m thinking about what to do next, I definitely don’t need to write yet, because I said that I just don’t need communication, I need to be responsible for my words, then I need another plan, I return to the forum and read again like the good old days ) didn’t seem to do anything special anywhere, there were no gifts, there seemed to be no sucker’s actions either, with the exception of inappropriateness (



What do you guys recommend? The chick is clear, I would like to have fun with her sometimes or continue communication sometimes, she’s pleasant to me, I don’t know, I’m at my wit’s end about what to do next. She knows that I'm married, she knows that I have a child, she knows all this. She sometimes wrote to me herself, but rarely, mostly if I took a break for 2-3 days, she saw me at work and wrote like, why are you so sad, etc. (although she wasn’t sad)


I apologize if I explained it stupidly or had a hard time writing