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I will say right away that I need advice and support, and not ridicule and other things. I am a young girl, had (and now am) several long-term relationships. I have strong feelings for MCH, mutually. but the problem is that I don't want sex.
MCH is patient, understanding, but I feel that he lacks this. MCH tries to do everything to make me feel good (foreplay, etc.), the body responds (lubrication appears), but there is absolutely no desire in my head, and every time I wait for it to end. and yes, I don’t feel almost anything in the process (slightly pleasant and no more.), I don’t know what an orgasm is. I know that I need to go to a specialist, and I'm going to, but it's not cheap, so I'm waiting for a certain amount to appear.
I love MCH very much, I myself want everything to change in this regard, but everything that we have not tried does not change attitudes towards sex. share, who faced such a situation, what did you do, did you manage to change something ???