Mom won’t let me, how can I achieve it? ⇐ Incest

[Anonymous]

Mom is very exciting to the point of madness. At the age of 13-14, as if suspiciously by accident, I saw her several times between her legs in detail. Of course, I saw boobs and a hairy pubis many times when I came out of the bathroom, for example. But she is absolutely cold to sex, my father, due to lack of sex, began to cheat on her and left in the end (no questions to him, he is good for me) when I was 10 years old and I’m not sure that she had anyone else in her life . Then I never saw anything on the topic of men with my mother, did not communicate with anyone, did not invite anyone, did not go anywhere from home. I tried to speak frankly, and innocent tenderness like hugs - coldness, refusal, let's close the topic, I'm not like that, even to the point of threatening to sue. He doesn't even want to kiss me on the lips. I’m afraid to rape him and he’ll put me in jail, and it’s just unpleasant, I don’t want to do that with any woman. I really want it, but only without outright violence. I found a woman of a similar type and age, everything is good and pleasant there, but I still want to be with my mother for real. Is this real? I thought about knocking him out with sleeping pills. Theoretically it’s possible, but the main thing is that I definitely want to cum in her, and how can I remove the sperm from inside later? He’ll burn like he’s going to wash himself in the morning, even if he doesn’t understand everything at once... Maybe someone has done something like this? To go to such lengths just to get in and have a little sex - well, it’s somehow tasteless. In general, ideally, I want a “night of love” with my mother, to give her cunnilingus until orgasm, then for her to move smoothly and deeply on the penis in cowgirl facing me and say all sorts of depraved things, and of course to cum inside her. Yes, not even a night of love, so that she would voluntarily lift up her skirt, lean on the table, enter her and cum quickly, in general, let me leave her alone. But this is completely fantastic. I agree to fuck the sleeping woman if all the problems are solved. Tell me in general, is it realistic, what is the best way.