I think about my sister ⇐ Incest

[Anonymous]

Hello everyone again. After the events with my girlfriend and her brother, which I have already described, I began to have thoughts and memories about my second cousin. We haven’t communicated with her in person for quite some time, and the last time in correspondence was a couple of years ago. Unfortunately, due to politics, communication stopped, and not on the best note, and I was added to the emergency situation. But I really hope that someday everything will be normal again, but for now she is studying in France.
To the point. I liked the topic of incest for a long time, but I never projected it onto my relatives. First porn or fantasy, then the situation with the girl. And now more and more memories are awakening about our time with my sister. Back then I was often sent to my aunt for the summer. From what I remember, the most striking incident was when my aunt was washing me when I was very young, and then my sister started knocking on the door to be allowed into the toilet. To all the persuasion about going on another floor, she replied that she wouldn’t have time. And now I’m thinking about it and it seems that she specifically wanted to watch something, because in general she would have had great time, since she spent more time persuading through the door) Of course, childish curiosity, but still. I wasn’t interested in it at all then, even though I was older. Well, in the end, no one saw anything. At the same time, they played with the family, “took care” of the dolls, etc.
No more such cases occurred. Already much older, I discovered that in their library (they had a large plot with a main house, a guest house, where there was a room for a library, a separate kitchen house) there was a Kama Sutra somewhere, although I never found it among all the books. But adults talked about it several times, and I already understood perfectly well what was written there. In general, their family is quite open, but again, nothing like that was ever in their thoughts.
And here, in fact, is the essence of the question... To be honest, no matter how excited I am by such abstract fantasies or when others do this, to me It feels a little uncomfortable now. And the sister is also, as it were, a second cousin, not a very close degree of relationship, but I don’t know if this is correct. As a result, I thought a lot about the situation in the bathroom, imagining what it would be like at my current age (excluding my aunt, of course
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), I imagined what she looks like now, being a real girl. Plus, I looked through the entire Internet for her leaks, but found nothing. Still, she is still just as modest. But we are young, so I think we have every chance of meeting again and making peace when all this crap is over. And then, I don’t even know if this is right, whether she won’t be scared, but I want to arrange some kind of situation...
Or for something similar to childhood to happen again, but I doubt that she will now come knocking while I’m in soul. Or, on the contrary, knock on her door. Or make her see me masturbate. In any case, now I'm just obsessed with it. Of course, a lot has to come together for this to happen, and it will (IF IT WILL) obviously not happen in the near future, but the thoughts persist in my mind. In general, what do you think about everything described? How realistic is it to overcome the political barrier, to meet, is it worth it at all, isn’t it better to suppress such thoughts? And if everything works out and we continue, what’s the best way to approach it? I definitely can’t do the same with my girlfriend, the characters are painfully different, my sister is much more modest, although maybe situations from the past will play out, or she has changed.
By and large, I wanted to speak out, but if there is someone to answer something, I will be glad)
Good luck to everyone