I wanted to hit me, they hit me, and then they dumped a sea of ​​cringe ⇐ Pick Up

[Anonymous]

Hi all. There will be a lot of text. Please tell me how to get my eggs back and how deep I have dug myself.

Introduction

There is a girl with whom we attend language courses together. We are both 28. Students abroad. At the end of that year, I saw sympathy on her part, but was busy with another girl, so I ignored and disposed of signs of attention, so as not to give her a reason to get into my life. Then she didn’t like how I behaved, and she threw an insult, and they stopped communicating. I did not care.

Rise and Fall

This year we crossed paths again by chance at the same courses, and after a couple of classes she started making advances and flirting again. For personal reasons, I knew that I couldn’t date her or fuck her at the moment, so I didn’t take the initiative, but I didn’t stop when she showed affection. One of the key moments was a joint trip to a club, where they partied all night, just the two of them, after which they made out in the entrance of her house, touching each other everywhere. She couldn’t let her in because she lives with her neighbor in the same room. And I had no plans for ending the day like that, I didn’t intend to fuck and I didn’t take protection with me. After that, for several days in a row, she started sending messages like “what a cool guy you are,” hearts, etc. I didn’t want this, because I knew that I couldn’t fuck, and that means it would be put on hold and in dod. In turn, I saw that she felt good with me, and I didn’t want to turn her off and hurt her. Plus, I decided to enjoy the time and caresses, and fly to dod understanding this in advance. About a week later, this day came. I felt bad because I was slowly starting to get stuck. DoD was based on the principle “We conduct our meetings too passionately, and because of this, productivity suffers greatly (since we came to study and stupidly groped each other and sucked). I don’t want a relationship now, let’s continue our communication as before the party.” After that, we didn’t communicate or see each other for two days. On the third day I didn’t care and I came to class in a great mood, and it was clear from her face that she cried a lot.

My stuck

As a result, we continued our communication, there were also hugs, kisses only on the cheek from her side, etc., this began to become not enough for me, and I began to try to kiss her on the lips or suck her in order to return the former passion of communication, but I felt a chill. Nevertheless, she called me every day via video call in the afternoon and evening, sometimes chatting for half an hour. She was always very happy to see me. The other day I finally found a moment to kiss her again - she liked it. But that same evening I started cumming her hard, and the cold began to set in.

In the following days, the kisses remained, with hickeys, but on my initiative. However, she responded to kisses reluctantly, it was cold. At the same time, she began to let me know with different signals that she was just flirting. That this is her typical communication. Then she posted that half of the University was approaching her, and she was just a flirty girl who loved attention. It’s clear to me that this is her way of screaming at me to get off.

Spanish shame

The most idiotic situation happened the other day, because of which I hate myself. There will be a lot of cringe, watch out. The eggs rolled off to Mars. She calls me and asks:
Quote


OZhP - "blah blah, are you going to dinner?"

Me - “this place is not open today, go to another one”

OZhP - “I don’t want to. Especially since it’s starting to rain there, and I don’t have an umbrella. I’ll go home then”

I - “ok, as you want, but if anything happens, come over”

Calls back in 5 minutes. Standing at the bus stop.

OZhP - “even though I’m already standing at the bus stop, tell me, would you bring me an umbrella?”

Because I was sleepy, and I was enraged by her aforementioned rils and her crown on her head, I answered

Me - “no. Why would you?”

OZhP - "no? Are you serious? You live nearby and can’t help me? We won’t have any more kisses. Let’s leave flirting and communication, but no more kisses "

Me - “firstly, I have to walk there for about 20 minutes, in the other direction altogether. secondly, you and I are not on good terms, so I should just bring an umbrella like that.”

I know that I could have disposed of it, or laughed it off, but I didn’t give a damn and I slashed from the shoulder. She gets offended and throws it away.



I think it’s okay, even though my balls are shrinking (disgraceful). And I just had to walk past the stop near my house, where she had a transfer to her house. I go out, take an umbrella, and a powerful downpour begins to fall. I think, let me see if she's at the bus stop. I approach - it’s really there. Standing sad. As I approach, she shys away from me. And at that moment I turned into a spineless mattress who says, “We must be judged by actions, not words.” And I invite her to walk with me to the metro. On the subway she says to me, “Then walk me home.” Hinting at a kiss, I say the ticket “can’t be bought” or something. Laughs, kisses, hugs. I buy a ticket for myself and go with her. While we’re driving, he says, “So you want to kiss me that much?” I say, “That was offensive just now. Do you really think about kissing? I’m doing this for you.” I think what a moron you are talking about. Nevertheless, we are coming. We go into the entrance, I start having post-party flashbacks and pounce on her. She gives in, we kiss, I touch my butt, but my chest won’t let me, I feel cold and pushes me away with my hands. A little later I left for dinner. I got wet through and through, and in the end she didn’t even ask me how I got there. What a pest, I think. She asked me in a message what kind of wine we drank after that party. Hell knows why. Answered. At night, she sent me an offensive message to follow up, to which I did not respond. There were no more calls or messages from her. Still.

Consequences

Today was another lesson. She came on me a little. I didn’t contact her at all, I just communicated as usual with humor and jokes. But if before she laughed at any stupid joke, today this was much less the case. The most important point that really touched me was that we each had a bottle of water. Mine is very cold, hers is warm. I say give me some water, I can’t drink mine. I won’t give it to you, he says, you have your own. How do you understand this, disgust? I ask, why are you sour? He answers, “You’re annoying.” As a joke or not, I don't know. At the same time, she bit me for fun during class, so there is no disgust? We didn’t go out to dinner together, as we did before, and she said she was going home. There were usually kisses goodbye, but this time they just hugged. Even the hug was cold, but mutually cold. Didn't try to kiss or take the initiative. I think to hell with you. We smiled goodbye.

Question

And what should I do now, I don’t know. The course will run for about another month. After this, we’ll probably never see each other again, even though we live in the same city. Many people know each other, which is bad. Plus what makes my ass burn. Soon there will be the same party we were at before, where we had a great time. This time I would like to bring the matter to the end, but I feel after my observation that this is not even close to possible for me. She probably won’t even want to dance with me, but I only went last time because she dragged me there. And given her attractiveness, if not me, then someone else might fuck her, and then my ass would just burst from anger and despair. I think not to go to this party at all, so as not to hit my forehead against the wall later. Well, the main question is, have I lowered myself below the plinth? How to taxi? Is it worth joking and being yourself as a shirtless guy? Or start ignoring her and sit away from her? To be honest, despite my tight grip, I want to give her a good scrub and put her in her place. Although I’m stuck, I’m so angry with myself and her that I can really tell her our whole story, and how she fucked with her crown on her head, and I’m disgusted by her behavior towards me. But I think then she will simply write me down as inadequate. In general, forum members, what should we do? How to return the eggs and what to do with the party? Is there any chance? She is 100% not suitable for a relationship, but I would really like to get out of this game evenly, preferably by fucking her. At least leave the game with balls and respect on her part, even by cutting off communication.
Thank you so much for reading to the end.