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I got death threats today I don’t want to share this with my friends and my mother, it’s embarrassing and painful that I got into the net of an abuser and a manipulator. But I don’t know what to do, the situation has reached a peak point. My husband is a real abuser, stuck to me a little over 7 years ago. He was not always like this, he became gradually, dipping me into his shit going on in his head. It started with a decree, but because went to work early and wanted to disperse, calmed down for about a few years, but there were bursts from time to time. Today was the denouement of everything: he was rude, beat me while driving, called me names, humiliated me, called me a whore, etc. He decided that I was cheating and I needed to be killed urgently, with all the details of how he would do it. He yelled that I did not respect him and did not obey him. About me: I'm 35, I have a child from my husband, I work as a manager in a bank. Before marriage, there was and is a mortgage apartment, a car. In marriage, they bought another one in a mortgage. I am a kind person, many communicate with me both at work and outside. I try for the child, classes, sections, rest. I try to help people as much as possible and treat everyone friendly, except for those who openly conflict. He: bad relationship with family, criminal record, always fighting at work, periodically in conflict with friends. Egoist, everything should be as he said. He likes fishing, hanging out in the garage, drinking, he can pick mushrooms or go fishing in the middle of the night. At the same time, all my rare meetings with my friends in a hookah, riding a Sapa in the summer and the desire to relax on the sea are all perceived with hostility. I'm always wandering. There is no other word. Gym - pump your ass for your lover. To my words that if I had found someone, I would have left long ago - I will stab you. The child loves. But periodically, if angry, it can get nasty. I can't get rid of him. He constantly says that he will kill, burn the apartment and the car, serve time and leave, and I will die forever. During periods of peace, he behaves normally, but he makes offensive jokes. I don’t know what I did to this world so bad that I have to endure it? ( I'm going to see a psychologist tomorrow, I can't cope anymore...