I want to go left. ⇐ General

[Anonymous]

Hi all. I am 36, my wife is 33.4 years old. The relationship is simply wonderful, soul to soul. BUT. Before marriage, he was a terrible womanizer. There is a strong desire to be able to go left. She is categorically against it. No matter how much I explain to her that there is no threat to our relationship, she is not in any way. I'll leave you right away. Well, I don’t want to lose her, she is a wonderful wife and will be the best mother for our children. Does anyone have any experience on how to get permission from your wife to go to the left?
I thought about fucking her to the point of impossibility, so that she would already suffer from the amount of sex, but this is impossible) She has a libido like mine at 18 years old, she wants it always, everywhere and a lot.
And in recent months I began to cool off towards her in bed. I want to feel like a male and a winner when I take a new girl to bed. And I feel like I’m not a male, but simply someone who is entitled to sex according to the status of “husband”; this is terribly not interesting.
Here is the dilemma. Thanks for reading. Sex to everyone)
P. S. I don’t want to deceive, extinguish, hide, it’s somehow humiliating. Of course, I'm not going to tell her how great I had time with someone else, because that would hurt her dignity. But just knowing that she doesn’t mind would be great. And apparently it's unrealistic