Found mom's homemade porn ⇐ Incest

[Anonymous]

Hi all.
I have a small problem here. Or maybe it’s already big...
I’ve been unrealistically wanting my mother for about a month now. I want her like crazy. It started very abruptly. I decided to recycle electrical waste from old computers, disks, flash drives, etc. Well, of course, I checked before that to see if there was any important crap in there. And on one of the disks I accidentally discovered a short video of my mother and father frolicking. It's hard to say when it was filmed, the quality is not very good, there is no date. But it seems like a very long time ago. She and her father divorced 5 years ago. No debauchery, just boring homemade porn, of which there is more than a shitload on the Internet. But the very fact that it was my mother made me tremble in my hands. My dick was sore, it really hurt... When I jerked off on video for the first time, I was very embarrassed, but the buzz I got was simply unreal. Better than any sex I've ever had in my life. That day I probably jerked off 7-8 times. Then again, again and again. Then he just started jerking off to her photos (regular ones, in clothes), to her underwear, and even just to a picture of her in his head. Everything would be fine, but now I’m getting the hang of it. And in almost any situation. It’s just that when I see her, I immediately begin to mentally undress her. There's nothing I can do about it. Just her tits and holes in her head. What makes it even worse is that my mother is still young, pretty, and hasn’t even changed very much since the video (she’s 36 now, I’m 19). It seems to me that she is already beginning to suspect something, although I didn’t seem to be fired anywhere. Maybe she notices how I look at her or that I always have it. Maybe he just feels it, I don’t know. But it seems to me that she looks a little strange lately. My relationship with my mother is very good, even friendly. Probably due to the slight age difference. But they are exclusively in the mother-son format. The last year or two, maybe even a little like an older sister - younger brother, because I already have my own life where she doesn’t really interfere, she just sometimes gives advice. But in any case, there was never anything sexual. I don’t think it’s worth approaching her, it’s unlikely that I have any, even minimal, chance. And I don’t want to spoil the relationship. I just want to somehow get her out of my head. Advice to get a girl by, there is a girl. True, we live quite far from each other and see each other mainly on weekends. By the way, the girl is also already looking askance, because now I can only see her from behind, imagining that this is my mother. But in this position I pull it like a bitch several times a day. But that’s not the main thing right now, I’ll deal with her somehow. Yes, and I’ll say right away that I will not post the video, neither here nor in a personal message. I know there are people here who like to post their mothers. I don't judge, but for me personally this is absolutely unacceptable. Who has had something similar, tell me, when will this bullshit finally go away?! And one more thing. I’m still thinking, should I tell her about the video, or is it better not to? Of course, not about the fact that I jerked off to him.) Just what I found. I think it’s probably better not to.