Help please, I'm a little confused. I’ll say right away that I’ve read the forum, almost the entire thread. And I read a lot on other forums, but I still don’t understand what to do. In short, this is the situation. Mom burned me last Monday as I jerked off to her panties. More precisely, he sniffed and jerked off. Of course, I only do this when she’s not at home, and before everything was fine. And then she came much earlier, but I didn’t hear her enter. For some reason she entered my room without knocking, maybe she was urgently looking for something, I don’t know. Usually when the door is closed she knocks, but then out of luck. In short, she saw everything, said nothing and immediately left. I'm freaking shocked. I’m sitting here and don’t know what to do. I probably sat there for an hour, afraid to move, I was ashamed. Then I see she writes to me “come out, I’m not angry” and a smiley face. I sit in and don’t go out. Then she quietly comes in, sits down on the bed next to me, hugs me and says that she’s not angry, she understands everything, transitional age and all that. I didn’t really listen, my head was a mess, I was ashamed, I just looked at the floor. Then suddenly she laughs and says, “but if you really need it, you can continue to use it,” she kissed me on the cheek and left. I'm shocked, she kind of officially gave me permission to jerk off to her panties. I never left the room, I was very ashamed. She didn’t insist either, she only wrote once whether I would have dinner and came in again to say goodnight. Then I slept, on Tuesday I was relieved a little, I’m trying to behave as usual. Mom acts as if nothing happened. Not a word, not a hint, no such talk. In short, it’s really as if nothing happened. I've been on the Internet reading since Tuesday. That's how I came to you here. I read a lot, and of course I’m a geek, I decided to try the simplest thing, like hugging, watching TV in an embrace. Everything is fine. He hugs, doesn’t turn away, doesn’t leave. But that’s how it was with us before. So in fact, I didn’t really change anything. This is how everything went until Friday. On Friday evening she sits, as tired as I am for the week. Then it dawned on me, I said, let me give you a massage. In principle, it’s also nothing special, I’ve given her massages more than once. She immediately agreed, and really happily, she just immediately took off her T-shirt, leaving her bra on, of course. Then she lay down on the sofa and immediately unclasped her bra herself. He says take
in the bathroom liquid cream. I took the cream, sat on her, right on her butt and started massaging. She really gets high, says it’s great, how good she feels, etc. But without a hint, she really needed a massage. I massage it, first the shoulders, then go down. I lower her leggings so as not to stain her with cream. Not completely of course, not even half. About a third of the butt. But still much further than necessary. She doesn’t react, like everything is ok. I didn’t dare go any further, but I massaged her lower back well, especially the dimples above her butt and the very top of her butt.
I think the flight is normal so far. I kneaded it normally and started ironing it towards the end. Just palms from top to bottom, from bottom to top. And hands too. And she lay her arms not at her sides, but under her head. And when I stroked her from bottom to top, right to the end of my arms, it turned out that I was almost lying on her. I already had a hell of a boner all the time, and when I leaned forward, my boner hit her right between her buns. She doesn't react at all. He just lies there enjoying himself. Maybe I didn’t notice, I was wearing jeans, not sweatpants. I start to go down to the sides. Further more, already stroking on the sides. And her tits are really huge. I don’t know the size, but it won’t even fit into one hand. Of course, I haven’t tried it, but it’s obvious. And in short, she lies on her stomach in her arms, and her tits stick out quite a bit at the sides. Well, when I massage her sides, I also rub her tits. She doesn't react. I became insolent, I’m already stroking her tits wherever I can get them. And then she’s like, “Kitty, leave your boobs alone.” But absolutely calm. Really, one hundred percent like when he says “cat, give me the TV remote control.” Of course, I quickly removed my hands and stroked my back again. I crushed it a little more. Then he stood up and quickly adjusted his boner so that it wasn’t so bad. She fastened her bra and put on a T-shirt. She hugs me, pecks me on the cheek like thank you, it’s great how she was born again. And he starts saying something about dinner, like what to cook. Not a word about the fact that I was squeezing her tits, as if nothing had happened. In short, I'm at a loss. If she's having a blast, then why stops her? And if it’s unpleasant for her, then why doesn’t she turn it off right away? It’s just not like her to be patient at all, she’s not the patient type. If you don’t like something, you can easily catch it. In short, it doesn't look like her. The question, of course, is what to do next?
Have I already screwed up a lot? I’m soon 15, my mother is 33. I’ve never seen my father, until the third grade I lived with my grandparents. Then together with my mother. We live in a two-room apartment. Mom definitely doesn’t have anyone serious. He never spends the night anywhere, doesn’t go out for too long, and doesn’t take anyone home. The Dodikovs around her always wipe themselves dry, but it seems to me that she uses them stupidly. Take it, give it, bring it. It’s unlikely that she gives it to any of them. Although of course I don’t know, I didn’t hold a candle. But in theory, she should have some troubles. In short, what is the chance if everything is done correctly or there is nothing at all to catch except p**ds? And if there is,
what should I do? I don’t know if I can do as the instructions say: when you lie together, put your hand on your stomach, don’t kick, move on. Doesn't kick even further, etc. I'll probably stop myself. I notice something very strongly. So the second question. How to overcome fear?
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