CRY FROM THE HEART. Or how can an accomplished and in great shape family man stop eating himself up for being BI. ⇐ General

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Hello everyone who is reading this. In fact, it’s just thoughts out loud with little reliability for understanding, and maybe assistance in implementation. I am 36 years old, height 180, weight 85, athletic, penis 17 cm, hairy, and in general, in principle, natural hair is my fetish, hair on a man’s body is cool, sexy and masculine. There are tattoos, including in interesting places. The nipples are pierced and there are thick rings.
I have been married for 16 years, my daughter is 15 years old. I was incredibly lucky with my wife. Besides being a great partner and friend, she is a sexual animal just like me. Over the years, we have realized a sea of ​​our desires, from simple to the most daring. There was group sex, sex in front of spectators, in public places, golden showers, role-playing games with sophisticated scenarios. They saw nothing impossible and respected each other’s wishes. For example, about ten years ago my wife said that she would like to strap me off. I agreed. As a result, we left traditional sex for about 2 years, my wife was so blown away by what she was doing with my ass, how muscle memory was formed, and every time I accepted her toys or fist more pliable and even with a thrill, to be honest. And then that same wild animal feeling appeared in me to serve a real man. I raised this topic with my wife, but she made it clear in a harsh manner that she would not accept the option of a man fucking me. One day left and one with this problem. I won't pour water. Naturally, I found such a candidate. Also a family man, with a big dick, depraved and with his head on his shoulders. We ended up seeing him regularly for several years. Later, at my request, he brought in another one to realize my fantasies on the topic of double anal, etc. And before the start of the SVO, a third family man appeared in our company, and it was in this composition (three for one) that our meetings took place for 3-4 months. At the same time, my wife and I had excellent, vibrant sex all this time. I haven't lost my attraction to the female body for a second, it's just unreal. I thought and reasoned for a long time, what then do I ultimately feel for men? I realized that in sex with men, what turns me on wildly, purely psychologically, is the role that I assign to myself - the role of a means to satisfy any of their animal desires, no matter how bold they are, so that they don’t worry about it for a second during sex. , how do I feel, am I tired, etc. , but they stupidly got high and got what their wives definitely wouldn’t give them, and over the years I’ve learned on the side to be hardy, skillful, obedient, efficient and capable of giving what I sometimes want from my wife (I think everyone understands that in regular sex for many years, it is unlikely that the wife will be happy with a light slap in the face or will suck in the throat for an hour or more, hear swear words addressed to her, for example, etc.) And before sex with her, you probably run into the shower to at least rinse your penis. But in my case, on the contrary, I am wildly turned on by men’s unceremoniousness and the feeling that they will have you to the fullest until they have played enough, and my job is to obediently serve them. The trouble is that with the beginning of the Northern War, they all left the country, and for the life of me I cannot understand how and where I can find people like them. There are plenty of gays, but this is a completely different story, purely psychologically. I want to serve full of natural men who, from time to time, are not averse to letting off some steam and fucking the same guy to the fullest on the side, like a whore. Shared sincerely. We all have our cockroaches. Do not judge strictly. It will be interesting to read your opinion. And who knows, maybe one of the straight or family men will understand me and one day will come to take advantage of my skillful and working mouth and ass, for which thanks to my beloved wife.